The Ups, Downs, and Uncertainties of Life

Pushing through life's emotional rollercoaster can be exhausting.

By Naomi Vargas, Lifestyle Writer

I have been going down so many rabbit holes on TikTok lately.

Why do I do this to myself? I literally thought the world would end today, April 8. I even asked Alexa as TikTok told me to do so, to which Alexa responded, “According to a contributor, unfortunately, yes!” I was kind of relieved that I would not be here on April 9th because I have so many math assignments due, and I thought maybe I would go to Heaven math-free. As I sit here in my office, the eclipse has passed over an hour ago, and the world did not end. I am now working on my two math worksheets that are due. Thanks, TikTok, for lying to me. Did I mention before that I have lost 30 pounds due to this amazing math class? That is the only reason I like Math right now.

Ok, this girl just came into my office and reminded me of all good things in life. I am blessed, I do not want people thinking I experience only negative things. I have two beautiful kids, and two of the most precious grandchildren who are smarter than I could ever be. I have a wonderful mother, and the best baby brothers I could ever ask for.

Oh, but that TikTok will get your mind thinking some of the most insane things. I mean I have found out some of the saddest news about how so many of the young actors were sexually assaulted while acting on some of our most favorite kids shows. That is one thing I will never understand–how one can hurt a helpless child. At one point in my life, I wanted to be a social worker, but after seeing all the things my cousin had to see while being one, I burned that dream down. This world can be so disgusting and evil, I could never understand how we got here.

One positive thing, my daughter (who is transgender) was in a drag show here at Eastern. She did such an amazing job. I was beyond proud of her; she left me speechless. I thought to myself, How in the heck did I create such a talented human being? I could watch her all day, everyday be the best version of herself. The show was a great one; even my husband who is a very macho Mexican enjoyed himself and told me how amazing my baby girl did. That was music to my ears, as he can be ignorant when it comes to anything LGBTQ. I guess he is going to have to learn to love it if he plans on being in my life another 12 years.

I just recently was elected to the DEI council (diversity equity and inclusion chapter) at my workplace, Dairy Farmers of America. I am excited to learn all about this to help others recognize where we can help and make everyone feel equal at work. I am also a facilitator for our Leadership Essentials trainings with all leadership, helping management be better managers to their employees. A lot of the managers need all the help they can get (then again, don’t we all). I recently received a promotion at work, and I am really looking forward to learning all that I can so that I to can become a manager.

We had an intern with whom I became very close that just recently left to finish out her rotation at our corporate office. On the last night she was here, all the girls took her for a girl’s night dinner. One of the girls came back and said I had too much to drink. She shared everyone’s confidential information and said that I was making fun of the HR specialist at the Portales plant. There were 10 of us at the party and all my coworkers there told my boss that this was not true. This girl just has it out for me, and my heart is absolutely broken because I do not quite understand why. I have never understood how people will make up lies just to try and break others down, this is not a good look and I can only pray God deals with them.

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